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Verborgen auf die Cairns
Divide and welcome to me
This new means of understanding
Unhinge and open my eyes to the light
Focus one point in a reflection to a bound of clarity
And allow all means to shift ones mind to see two dimensions within three
Give in to what makes you smile
I was always told never break child keep the smile alive
Allow what makes you clear visible
Shadow the pain within bounds of stained glass
Cloaked unto the cairns that haunt your entwined words
We will always take for granted
Everything and everyone
And when they are gone, we are gone
It’s a shame we never gave into our emotions
It’s a shame we never admitted our words
Swallow it all now just like a packaged pill
Succumb to your depression and mourn, mourn away
I will lie now and say it will all be better by tomorrow
I will lie now and spoon-feed your words of ignorant bliss
So fulfilling how wholesome this is how subtle I see
How benevolent you are, how archaic this has become
It’s a shame we never gave into our emotions
It’s a shame we never admitted our words
Bound and bind, unravel, dissolve
Smile to the sun and kiss the moon
Convey, release, adhere
Remember the flickered flame upon the wound
Will heal
Will heal
They will always heal
Give it time
Give it time
Give it time
Abysmal Pathos
I drink in you my mind so clear
Unable to control
This translucent fear
Unable to sustain my vow of lies
Unable to rely on everything inside
Drifting along the brambles
Lacerations sting cold
Cuts tapered fresh shed and fester
Within the mold
Give me one voice
One word to screwm
For this eternal scar
My abysmal pathos
Allow it grow
Allow it to bloom
Allow it to fullment
My eternal pathos
Drifting along the brambles
Lacerations sting cold
Cuts tapered fresh shed and fester
Within the mold
Coma
I tear my eyes out thinking again
That this might end up different
I sit and stare at the walls of this cell
Until it all seems justified
The consequences of all that I’ve done
Have lead me here
The circumstances of how it was undone
Have left me without a trace
Of innocence, think what I’ve missed
For all these years
I’ve made such a mess, and wound up with less
Than what I started with
But I feel like I’m fading away
When every day is the same in this coma
You took my life and you threw it away
For you’re own
But how can this be
How am I still me
I lost it long ago
Why can’t I move?
Why can’t I breathe?
I feel I’ve lost control
Of everything and everyone I ever cared about
You sit by this bed, hands on your head
And slowly watch me die
Why can’t you save me?
Why can’t you help me through this now?
I don’t deserve this, how did I earn this
I tried so hard
But I feel like I’m fading away
When every day is the same in this coma
You took my life and you threw it away
For you’re own
But I feel like I’m fading away
In this coma
Fading away
In this coma
You took my life and threw it away
In this coma
Caught In The Red
Too many tears
Too many fears
Too much at stake to leave this here
Too much in debt
Too much regret
Too much we haven’t got to yet
Somebody else
Somewhere to go
Somewhere to hide from all you know
Turning inside
Turn back the pride
It’s time to let me go again
What is this feeling inside my head?
It wants to control me it wants you to know me
Why can’t I learn from the things you’ve said?
How many times must I lose in the end?
I can’t control this anymore
Losing my mind changing inside
Caught in the red
Caught in
Too much to bleed
Too much to see
Something deep inside of me
Walls and a floor
Nothing more
Than what you see in front of me
Stained and unclean
Cold and obscene
I never can return again
I can’t fight inside
This pain that I hide
It’s pushed me one too many times
What is this feeling inside my head?
It wants to control me it wants you to know me
Why can’t I learn from the things you’ve said?
How many times must I lose in the end?
I can’t control this anymore
Losing my mind changing inside
Caught in the red
Caught in the red
Caught in the red once again
I’m too blind with rage inside
What is this feeling inside my head?
It wants to control me it wants you to know me
Why can’t I learn from the things you’ve said?
How many times must I lose in the end?
I can’t control this anymore
Losing my mind changing inside
Caught in the red
Caught in the red
All these feelings need a release
Caught in the red
Caught in the red
Things inside won’t let me be
Caught in the red
Caught in... red
The red
The red
The red
Falling Away
Close my eyes and I forget
No need to feel no need to regret
Cause what I do I do for sin
They can’t blame me for the things I’ve seen
The war machines, killing fiends
The industry, they’ll probably just deny it again
For all the shames
Who’s to blame?
I wonder what have we become
Falling away
Falling away
Falling away
Everything turns red
It all comes back to the things we’ve said
Masochistic morning prayer
Reaching out but no one’s there
Heavy burdens not for you
Put it off as it’s what you knew
Degradation, emulation
Of everything in front of you
For all the shames
Who’s to blame?
Wonder what have we become
Falling away
Falling away
Falling away
For all the shames
Who’s to blame?
Wonder what have we become
Falling away
Falling away
Falling away
Not Again
I hear you talking to me
Does it mean anything?
Cause I just happen to be one to give a damn
Got me so blind I can’t see
What am I doing here?
You fed me all of these lies
But I’m still standing here
I just shut my eyes and smile
And I’ll pretend for a while
Cause you’re right again
Close my eyes again
Hope I never have this dream
Cause it feels like I’m falling away
I can’t see I can’t stay
There’s nothing I can do
There’s nothing I can say
But the feelings inside of me
They’re boiling they’re rising
No telling what I might do
I wish you’d just fade away
I told myself never again
I wouldn’t be lead off the path
What happened to my life?
Cause all I feel is suffering
Empty wounds from empty souls
Did I try too much or just not enough?
Is this where I belong
Is this where I belong
Is this where I belong
I just shut my eyes and smile
And I’ll pretend for a while
On the ride again
Lost inside again
Look what’s happened to me
Cause it feels like I’m falling away
I can’t see I can’t stay
There’s nothing I can do
There’s nothing I can say
But the feelings inside of me
They’re boiling they’re rising
No telling what I might do
I wish you’d just fade away
Not again
Not again
Not again
Cause it feels like I’m falling away
I can’t see I can’t stay
There’s nothing I can do
There’s nothing I can say
But the feelings inside of me
They’re boiling they’re rising
No telling what I might do
I wish you’d just fade away
Scattered Stones
I died today
Inside this simple life I tried to leave
I tried to leave
I cried today
For my simple that’s taken away
So what you’re trying to say is
I can’t be here anymore
So what I’m trying to say is that I can’t continue this way
Did I lie too much?
Or not cry enough
Did I never understand?
Was I never there for you?
And if so, why’d you stay around
It’s silent now
The thoughts echoing through my mind
Like the shotgun here
Like the shotgun here
Did I lie too much?
Or not cry enough
Did I never understand?
Was I never there for you?
And if so, why’d you stay around
The bullets hit the floor
I won’t feel this anymore
Take a look inside and see what’s left of me
Of me
Of me
Of me
Sunday Massacre
Three long years you’ve suffered this
Consumed by tears and a morbid kiss
Now it’s time you live again
Trapped inside your head now spin
This indecent proposal
Of life and disposal
You’ll never begin to believe
But you can run again
(Leave your life behind)
Run again
(Everything is fine)
Run again
(Leave your life behind)
Run again
(Live this simple life)
Keep changing your life
Survive on your little green pill
Keep wasting my time
While you pretend to know the pain I feel
You’ll pay for your regress
And all of your sickness
When it all comes down on you
But you can run again
(Leave your life behind)
Run again
(Everything is fine)
Run again
(Leave your life behind)
Run again
(Live this simple life)
Run again
(Leave your life behind)
Run again
(Pretend everything is fine)
But this was nothing but a Sunday massacre
A way for you to ease the pain
A bloody fucking Sunday massacre
A way for you to control the end
Faded Sillhouette
Standing within grounds of blood
Exile and distress arise
Unchained to the over-bearing tide
I dissolve into the flood
Show me just reasons
Explain to me why
I am not looked at with loved eyes
Why am I always denied?
Going against set expectations
Drifting away from the line
You salvage away your kindled emotions
And divide me away from your side.
Broken are the ties that bind us
Shattered are the miles we have walked
Unspoken are the words I have swallowed
Disemboweled are the chords unsung
This is Complicated
Why is this supposed to be so complicated?
I feel so insecure and jaded
Deny this random act of weakness
And rely on this to pass the time between the stages
Hide behind the mask of irrelevant consequence
You can’t hide behind the lies and still tell the truth of providence
Seeking out the future in the past where you lost it all
Digging for your fortune for the places that you already know
You already know
Why am I standing here?
Believe what you’d like to
But you already know the truth
Deny what you see here
Inside of you
This complicated but I’ll get through
Tragedy and reason are the wounds that keep you alive
Fake communication all the fronts have been taken out
Bare it all to see this illusion is over now
Adulation wipes back the tears that are in your eyes
Sufficient adoration
Or just more pretension lies
Why am I standing here?
Believe what you’d like to
But you already know the truth
Deny what you see here
Inside of you
This complicated but I’ll get through
Hands bound, tied down
You’re still a slave
You’re still a slave
I won’t let you drown
Reach out for me, you’re going under
Don’t be scared
I’m right here
No regrets
Nothing to fear
Why am I standing here?
Believe what you’d like to
But you already know the truth
Deny what you see here
Inside of you
This complicated but I’ll get through
But I’ll get through
But I’ll get through
But I’ll get through
But I’ll get through
Product #203
Once well met but now well sought
Once one step behind now just one step ahead
But that's just you and I don't know you anymore
This is me releasing me some means to peak through the door
I've never wanted a shadow
I've always cast away mine
Subdued to walk with this hollow mirror
Will you ever grow...
A spine
Always tasting on my treats
Always taking what I sought for
So silent we've become
I just can't let you take anymore
To take
To make
To replicate
Will I ever find peace
Within my decisions
My manufactured doll
Without guidance, acceptance
So slowly will you fall
You'll fall
You'll fall
You'll fall
I've never wanted a shadow
I've always cast away mine
Subdued to walk with this hollow mirror
Will you ever grow a spine
So slowly will you fall
So slowly will you fall
Madorhea
Say your words now and fucking choke on them child
Choose your knife now enjoy the exhile
It was never my place so you said
You knew the truth but you left fear fuck with y our head
Just like a moth to an open flame
You're flickering curiousity fetished into your brain
Say your words now and fucking choke on them child
Choose your knife now enjoy the exhile
As each second dies so do you and I
It was never my place huh huh huh
It was never my concern
I guess it's nother lesson well taught and another scar well earned
Another scar well earned
But as the drapes ascend unto the night
Let the gag mute was right
As the curtains cloak over the night
Let the sillhoetted silence fade into the light
And as the black bleeds upon the grey
All the pain you harness now will never fade away
The Last Song
Falling on my knees
Again it’s arrested me
This revelation in the sky in front of me
Open my eyes
And the light is blinding
Holding me down all these chains are binding
The words you said to me
And all you gave to me
Now they won’t let me be
I can’t push them all away
Don’t know what’s left of me
The strength you’ve given me
Now when I close my eyes all I see is closure
No point in holding on
To this lie in my head and this hope in my heart
No pleasure can come to me while we’re apart
The words you said to me
And all you’ve gave to me
Now they won’t let me be
I can’t push them all away
Don’t know what’s left of me
The strength you’ve given me
Now when I close my eyes all I see is closure
I lived with this pain
And I lived with your love
If I have to chose now
I chose me
The words you said to me
And all you’ve gave to me
Now they won’t let me be
I can’t push them all away
Don’t know what’s left of me
The strength you’ve given me
Now when I close my eyes all I see is closure
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